I log onto this forum a lot when I am tired and I don't feel good. At first I started fights because I was mad at my local Trauma-Informed community for not listening to my advocacy ideas. I am trying not to start fights as much. It's hard work. I was amazed to see such an outpouring of support. I cried. I don't know why, I don't always have words for how I feel.
I still log onto this forum when I don't feel good. I have a brain injury which is causing migraines and vision problems and making it hard to work. I don't feel good most of the time, really. I only get small windows of productivity. But now I come here when I need to feel better. The people on here help me feel better these days. Virtual relationships are not as good as real life stuff, but when you are so sick it's hard to get out, it's a lot better than nothing. Feeling sick and scared and hurt and vulnerable is a lot harder than feeling angry. But it gets more done to admit that's where I am actually at and try to move on from there.
