HI... I want to acknowledge this really really difficult beginning and early time you experienced. I am an Infant and Early Childhood Trauma specialist, and have produced a 13 Module, 78 hour Video Series "Healing Early Developmental Trauma". I would be happy to speak with you...my email is myrna@myrnamartin.net and my website is www.myrnamartin.net. warmly, Myrna