Hello Dear Community,
I have decided to seek treatment to truly heal from past traumas, you can find the fundraiser here: https://www.mightycause.com/story/Maecuf
Please consider donating, I would be very grateful to you.
This is the beginning of the text I wrote:
I wish to seek specialist treatment for posttraumatic stress disorder, depression and anxiety. Indeed, I have been suffering from depression probably since I was 10 years old but I kept it all hidden and now that I have three daughters, it is urgent for me to heal from my past traumas so that I can be the mother I never had to my daughters who, like every child in the world, deserve to grow up with safe and loving caregivers. I try my best but motherhood has been very triggering for me and pushed me into a deep depression during and after each of my pregnancies, bringing back memories of my own childhood. I realized the deep nature of the pain I carry and that how much it could impact my children only after I became a mother. I believe I am not a good mother, live in fear that my children will be sexually attacked by a predator and struggle with the idea they will ask me to go and have a sleepover at somebody’s house. I am so depressed and disconnected that I cannot work and I am in a dissociated state most days.
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