Hi Jeffrey,
Polyvagal theory and understanding attachment trauma are hugely helpful in this journey of healing complex PTSD.
Since you are familiar with NARM I imagine you have looked at their database of therapists to inquire if there might be any with a sliding fee scale?
Other potential resources, if you're not familiar with these, might include
- There is a free fb group on polyvagal theory (Vagus Study Group), which might be useful and supportive to join since the discussions are wide ranging and we are all learning all the time as part of our healing journeys.
- Irene Lyon is trained in somatic experiencing and runs online trainings, but also has a large database of free youtube videos and regular info / newsletter that might be of interest since she is polyvagal and trauma informed and includes attachment info in her work
- Arielle Schwartz, PhD, mentioned earlier, has written books on this topic, including one with exercises to do on your own and that help recognize and work with our triggers. That said, this kind of healing does best when healing and working in relationship, and it tends to take time given how long our exposures were during childhood. Perhaps you will be able to find someone who takes your insurance in time.
- I have a blog where I write about chronic illness from trauma and nervous system / polyvagal perspectives. This includes attachment work I do on my own healing journey that might offer some support or ideas, as well as writing about freeze and books that support this healing journey
Wishing you all the best to you on this journey so many of us are on. ACEs / PACEs connection is a great resource and a wonderful tribe!