As someone who has had C-PTSD all his life from emotional abuse by a narcissistic parent, it's taken me years to understand what my exact condition means (and to be honest very few of my therapists have provided useful answers). However thanks to polyvagal theory I now do understand a little bit, my body has just about totally dissociated from my brain, I'm stuck in dorsal vagal state (or according to NARM terminology I have connection survival style). This has made it impossible for me to take advantage of EMDR or many of the other modalities that require analyzing the feelings within the body. I also am on Medicare so I can't afford to "experiment around" with $200+/hour therapists who don't accept insurance. Where do I go from here? I'm hearing a lot about "psychedelic mental health", should I save up my nickels and try to amass enough to get ketamine therapy, or will MDMA be available soon, or is there an alternative to "rolling the dice"? There just aren't a lot of therapists who can even begin to understand what it's all about to be "frozen", let alone offer any kind of coherent solution. Thank you for reading this.
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