This past December, I hit a rough patch. I entered into a terrifying depressive episode, full of thoughts and feelings I couldn’t handle. Life with mental illness necessitates these moments on occasion, but there are still things I can do to try to prevent big collapses into depression. I had not been taking care of myself, and I fell apart.
What was remarkable about this particular depressive episode was its timing in my life. It was exactly one day after finals ended, my first day of winter break, when — out of nowhere — I was hit with severe suicidal thoughts. I had no idea where these thoughts came from. After all, finals had just ended, so I should have felt relief and joy. Instead, I was in a very dark place. It was confusing.
Suppressing your emotions works for a short time, but eventually your body cannot handle it anymore. Eventually these feelings begin to come out sideways. Eventually you can no longer push the feelings down because there’s nowhere for them to go.
To read more of Christina Siewart's article, visit, https://themighty.com/2017/03/...fter-finals-college/
If you need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741.
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