Just happened to come across your honest sharing.
Parenting with ACEs is tough, particularly as a single mom. I constantly struggled to be in the present while so many intrusive thoughts of the past overwhelmed me. There were times, I wished I could just close the mother door.
"It wasn't intuitive or automatic.
Some of it was natural but much of it was not."
The above sentences really hit close to home.
I do feel guilty about some of my behavior now. Though thankfully, my son has turned out okay.
I have written about my experience: